"When And If" lyrics

I wrote her a letter yesterday
Told her that I'm fine
That I can't wait to come on back
And make up for lost time
The same life I promised her before
I'm gonna give her when I open that door

They say I'm here to fight their cause
And that I could die trying
I'd like to think their aim is true
But I think that they're lying
The same life I was living well before
I'm taking back soon as I open that door

Lord will I live to see that day'
Deliver me a sign
'Cause it is only a matter of time
Before I lose my mind
Yeah I'm losing my mind

The same life I was living well before
I'm taking back soon as I open that door
'Cause every day that I wake up to this war
I load up my gun and I can't tell you what for

I wrote her a letter yesterday
Told her that I'm fine
I may not see her ever again
But I'm gonna die trying
I'm gonna die trying
I'm gonna die trying
Die trying