"Built To Last" lyrics

Laid out my life in ways I couldn't explain
I used to justify highs, pouring myself down the drain
Claimed I was happy and healthy lived out my days in vain
The day that I turned twenty-one, I let my vices take the reins
Couldn't be honest, had no name to blame

Searching for answers
They're leading me on
Turns out that my only truth is
"Grow up and move on"
Regret the time I can't get back
Promises broke on my behalf
If all we are is who we have
I guess I'm making amends built to last

Outlived my vices, thought I wanted to die
Drunk off of any old crisis, leave my empty inside
If I can't live with me sober, how can I justify
The way that I curse my father, we're just two of a kind
Yeah I could tear out my throat, but I would still have his eyes

Searching for answers
They're leading me on
Turns out that my only truth is
"Grow up and move on"
Regret the time I can't get back
Promises broke on my behalf
If all we are is who we have
I guess I'm making amends built to last

I'm so scared I'll end up back home
Don't think I'm coming back
Now I'm on my own in a city of gold
You call it torture I call it paradise
Guess I haven't learned my lesson
The shit I've seen you wouldn't believe
The devils in the details
Another year with you inside my head
Are you feeling it too?
Watch the beauty in the fall
Every day a little more alive
What was I made for if I wasn't made for this?