"Nobody Told Me" lyrics

Feel the gray as the sun comes up
Hide away from the ones I love
I don't mean to worry them, so I stay silent
And I save the dark and ugly for myself
Maybe it's the pills I take
All the promises I break
Maybe it's the therapy
Isn't this supposed to help me?

Mother, oh father
Have I fallen farther?
My mind won't stop racing
My head's under water
Nobody told me
That it gets this lonely
My heart's made for chasing
My doubt still controls me
Nobody told me

Twenty-eight with a past, and I can't get past it
Burning bridges, and I blame it on my passion
Wrote the book on how to ruin another good ending
Maybe if you say I'm fine
That I meet the expectation
Maybe I just need some time
Another dose of validation

Mother, oh father
Have I fallen farther?
My mind won't stop racing
My head's under water
Nobody told me
That it gets this lonely
My heart's made for chasing
My doubt still controls me
And nobody told me

It gets loud
In an empty space
Feels like I could drown
When I fill up my cup these days
Now all of my demons have got me believing
I've still got penance to pay

Mother, oh father
Have I fallen farther?
My mind won't stop racing
My head's under water
Nobody told me
That it gets this lonely
My heart's made for chasing
My doubt still controls me