"I Try" lyrics

Thin line between cocky and confident
I'm on a tight rope was living on climb road
Got mad anxiety so no emotions I might show
Googling things that one day I'm hoping
I might own and I'm going through my DM's
Fans are saying I might blow
They think I'm a nice blog
If you don't click my video
Think I'm just any white folk
And if rap don't ever work out like my gym
I might buy a bulk of cali and white snow
And I wanna be like Michael Jordan being
Such a go getter
2021 I'd say I change but I'm no better
I'll smoke for my own pleasure
Rent is due tomorrow when I'm broke
You don't know pressure
And karma tried to get me back at once
But I don't let her
Pops, he's getting on and need some rent so
I give it out and gave Mum a figure out
But nowadays the currency we trade is a bit of clout
And people can't accept the energy
That they're giving out

Cause sometimes I get so stressed
I don't know what's been going on
Hope I'll be fine
And sometimes I am so blessed
But I can't see it through my eyes
But I try

I feel I'm growing but I'm growin to the land that unseen
And everyone must bleed
As soon as you do me wrong
I stay cool but my trust leaves
Grew up living life but soon found nobody loved me
And it ceased to ride the coke
So why did nobody bus me
Learning what loss means
And nowadays I'm feeling like a fish swimming upstream
And they idolize success
And say they do but they love sleep
I trust if you trust me
And I need to stop complaining about the things that I can't change
I'm stuck in my past ways
I'm trying to live my life with no regrets like my last days
Anxiety is a bitch
I'm thinking about what I can't change
Like why of all my fallen soldiers had to go part ways
Cause everybody's talking but their lying
And I know I'm not there but I've been tryin'
I'm smoking on this cali now I'm flyin'

Cause sometimes I get so stressed
I don't know what's been going on
Hope I'll be fine
And sometimes I am so blessed
But I can't see it through my eyes
But I try