"I Don't Know When, I Don't Know How, I Don't Know Why" lyrics

I'm gon' die
I'm gon' die
I don't know when, I don't know how, I don't know why
Now, I'm gon' lie
I'm gon' lie
I'm terrified, as any other guy

Oh my, oh my
I love the earth
I love the sea
God, I love the sky
But when I die
Don't you dare cry
No, don't you dare cry
I'll tell you why

All of my life I have lived
With one rule to help me survive
All of my life I have lived
With one rule to help me survive
I will not die
Oh, I will not die
While I am still alive

Now, I don't decide
But I will not hide
We all must abide
Yes, we all must abide
I'll tell you why
I don't take your side
Sides are all narrow
The ocean is wide

I think you need me
To sublimate this into
Something that
You can chew, anything
More like you
Normal ain't what I do
I've been too close to the darkness
Too long to not see the truth

See I've been rejected from normal trajectory
Since I've been objected to so many pain
So many pain, so many pain
Only a song can try to explain

But when we go
When we go
When we finally let it all go

But when we go
When we go
When we finally let it all go

You say goodbye
You all say goodbye
I'll say hello

Hop and I go and you won't see more of me
Falling through the floor and the flow's got hold on me
Flowing in the flow and flow is God in me
Eeny, miny, moe, mining more means more of me
Many mining more and I core just more of me
Any miner knows that the call is calling me
Any mining more and there won't be any me

Stop this
I don't want this
Let me disrupt all this self-destructiveness
I digress but there's dire stress in me
If I die graceful then there's something wrong with me

I congress all myself to myself
And I protest all this slow press
And I shelf all this nonsense about being OK with this
So chivalrous, I'm not OK with this
I'm gonna cave from this
I ain't going to stand on my grave
And just reach out my hand to the great abyss
Let me tell you this

I'm still a body, just a body
And I'm just like everybody
I'm a flesh and bone embodied
Sense of self that needs to badly
Recognise itself through oddly
Patterned shapes that go around it
But there is never anybody
It's just me, there is nobody

And I'm blind, but I still find it
All these shapes that help define me
Through the fog, they help outline me
As I scream with all my finite
Gasps of air into a universe that don't care
It's just echo of my own sowing

And I can't go or just let go of it
My imminent death is a weight in my chest, yo
My breath is congesting with all of this self flow
I can't breathe but I'm still spitting
And I don't believe but I'm still spitting
And I can't leave so I'm still spitting
And I can't breathe but I'm still spitting

Now, I'm gon' die
I'm gon' die
I don't know when, I don't know how
I don't know why