"Ego Death" lyrics

I'm not so good at first impressions
I just forget your name as soon as I turn around
I've failed myself before I even start, hear me out
There has to be a way to turn around, at this point
Am I just too far gone?
I've lived too long just trying to stay afloat
In tides too high for me to suffer through
Delusional thoughts
I can't even swim, I'm sinking as it's
Sinking in, I'm sick, obsessed in changing who I am

I gotta get what I want
And if I can't, then it seems that I have
Lost the best of my heart
And if it's gone, then I'll have to find myself
I guess that I'll stay trapped in my own hell

I gotta get what I want
And if I can't, then it seems that I have
Lost the best of my heart
And if it's gone, then I'll have to find myself
I guess that I'll stay trapped in my own hell
Trapped in my own hell

Digging up the grave of my former self
Asking where the fuck did I go wrong, this is
Ego death
Ego death

Is it my time to die?
Ego death