"I Feel Alone These Days" lyrics

I feel pretty alone these days
Being alone is no fun these days
Feel endless
Nevertheless I need someone to talk to these days
In this house full of people there seems to be nobody listening
Nobody watching these days
I hate being alone these days
I could cry so much every minute
I could burst into tears with not even a real reason
It's still summer, isn't it?
Summer's not the time to be depressed at least
That's what they say

I feel pretty alone these days
Everyone's on vacation
And I'm still sitting here in this shit
I can't go away because maybe I might be missing out on something
Something's gonna happen, I can feel it, you know it
It's too hot for me to go outside
But I need to excite to feel whole again
And I miss Ireland so much
Oh yeah my own heart's breaking just thinking about it
I feel pretty alone these days
I hate days like these
Days with no end and no beginning
Days where it's dark and it's getting darker every minute
I can't speak my mind, don't wanna bother
It's always been the same, it's gonna kill me sooner or later
I feel alone, I felt alone almost all my life
My only only constant in this maze is my mother
I'm a mother's child
And I'm proud to be hers
I'm proud to have survived
I would've loved to have him as well
But you can't have it all
That's what they say, be pleased with what you have
I am, I am, I am content but

But I feel pretty alone these days
I feel pretty alone these days
I feel so alone these days
I feel alone these days

These days feel like years
But these years move by just in an instant
I've lost track of time in between countless mornings and never ending sunsets
And I'm so done talking to my own reflection in the bathtub
Hoping to see a reaction from someone other than me
'Cause it can't be just me
I wanna shed my skin or at least my whole body behind some [?]
Still [?] this time
There's no need for me to play video games
'Cause I've got my boss battle everyday inside my own head
And I'm so tired, I'm tired, and I'm not well, and I'm not doing fine
But I wouldn't let this [?]

Why is it that I don't feel happy?
And no, I don't want my happiness depend on, on anyone else
But it seems like my subconscious had other plans for that
I feel alone