"Afterlife" lyrics

Can I start again?
Cause I can't remember if I'm foe or friend
Not like it matters if you're just pretend
Cause you're only here if you're under my skin

And I'd give you everything if you would do the same
But what if I offered first and you walked away?
My reflection in the mirror seems to change
And what if it's getting worse, I don't recognise my face

I always thought you were to blame

But I'm never satisfied
And I can't help asking why
Maybe I'll never find out
I'm running out of time
And everyone has to die
Maybe I'll find my place in the afterlife

Now I keep myself awake
So I can chase every moment that I can't resuscitate
And while I'm picking up pieces I can watch my soul escape
Cause every breath that I'm taking makes the colours come from grey

But I'm never satisfied
And I can't help asking why
Maybe I'll never find out
I'm running out of time
And everyone has to die
Maybe I'll find my place in the afterlife

It's like trying to chase something I'll never find
And each step of the way I feel I'm terrified
And the harder I try the more I'm paralysed
Now I'm tired of waiting

But I'm never satisfied
And I can't help asking why
Maybe I'll never find out
I'm running out of time
And everyone has to die
Maybe I'll find my place in the afterlife