"Raincloud" lyrics

My skin isn't soft like the people I love
It is rough it is blemished like me
My hair does not fall like the waves in the ocean
It's messy and damaged unclean
And God I try hard to fit any place

Put a smile on my face but I can't change
And I'm tired
I'm just tired
I try to be just like everyone else
No one will love you if you can't love yourself
Is that true
Do you hate me too

When I'm floating like a rain cloud
And I can't hear what you say
Hold me near let the world disappear
I'm so close yet I'm so far away

Before the storm even started
I knew it would be this way
I fought for so long against everything wrong
But I'm the reason that I'm not okay

Feel all the shadows and darkness creep in
That's when I know it's about to begin
Never gave me a chance
No I never could win
I will forever mourn
What could have been

My body's not made in the most perfect shape
I just feel clumsy and cold
My heart is not strong I just pull it along
Dragging all of this weight gets so old

And God its all wrong I just don't have the strength
To do this all again even for one more day
I am tired
I'm just tired

I need to get better I need to find help
But no body loves me 'cause I hate myself
And it's true
What else is there to do

When I'm floating like a rain cloud
And I can't hear what you say
Hold me near let the world disappear
I'm so close yet I'm so far away

Before the storm even started
I knew it would be this way
I fought for so long against everything wrong
But I'm the reason that I'm not okay

Feel all the shadows and darkness creep in
That's when I know it's about to begin
Never gave me a chance
No I never could win
I will forever mourn
What could have been