"Dear Jonathan" lyrics

Living in this world, we love you. (Ooh)
Living in this world, we love you. (Ooh)

Hey pops, I hope you know I wish that we could've talked
I hope you know you left your son with eyes full of tear drops
I hope you know that I don't think it's your fault
I'm just saying before you acted I wish that you would've thought
I hope you know I know you had your reasons
I think you had a heart of gold, you just was fighting demons
I get it. I get it. I promise you I get it
I heard a lot about you, I never know the truth
My mama say you something like me back in the day you was that dude
Relatives tell me I'm spitting image of you
I got a lot of anger in me, do I get it from you?
I hope you know when you left us, I lost a part of myself
A part of me was gone for reasons that I still don't get
Cause I don't know you from a can of paint
Maybe it was the absence of your presence that drove me to go this way
I just wanna know the smallest things:
Your favorite song, your favorite food, what was your favorite game
I want to know how you and mama came up with my name
I wish that I could tell you all my problems just so you could tell me "Son I know your pain"
Man this life shit ain't no game, it's driving a kid insane
I cocked it back and made it bang, got some racks and made it rain
Did too much at a young age, I wonder if you feel the same
If you've been watching over me, is you proud or you ashamed?
I'm hurt, but all real niggas cry
Bitch ass niggas give up, a lot of real niggas gon' try
Fake niggas get to grow old, A lot of real niggas just die
So I'm going to do everything I can on Earth before that come my time
I ain't never had no dad, I don't know what it's like so I can't say I feel alone
But I know I can't wait to be the bestest dad on Earth to my own
I'm not saying that you in the right, I'm not saying that you in the wrong
Cause I know I ain't no better, I made a hell of mistakes on my own
But I promise I'ma do better, I ain't saying you ain't doing do enough
I'm just saying it would've been cool if you and my OG did it together
Got the whole world in my hands, but I'm fucked up trying to change the weather
I know I can't fight these battles alone, but I try, I can't help
I stay screaming "Fuck you, pay me" on my knees like Lord, save me
I want to see the sunny side of things, even if that mean changing
I thank mom, pops, and God for the child that they created
But it's not nobody on this Earth that can say they made a nigga

Try to find my way, my way through