"Numbers Game" lyrics

I can't help but stare when I get naked
Not because I love myself no, this is out of hatred
Hard for me to change
Easier to run away
Everything's the same
Life is a just a numbers game

But I'll get even
I'll get by
What are the odds?
If I try?
Is it worth it?
Tell the truth
I'm not stupid
I'm not you

Yeah, yeah
I'ma sick man
Sick in the brain in the head
Sick in the stomach, man I'm sick in the chest
Might be sick in my eyes, might be sick in my neck
I got unpaid bills man I'm sick & depressed
Ain't shit in my life that gon' make me feel better
I could pop percys but I'd still be the same
So who's left to blame?
I got dirt inside my veins
There's a chance I might be dying, but I'm still about the game
Don't sleep on my name

'Cause I'll get even
I'll get by
What are the odds?
If I try?
Is it worth it?
Tell the truth
I'm not stupid
I'm not you

Is it ever gonna change? (Is it ever gonna change?)
Will I always be the same? (Will I always be the same?)
Are you ever gonna save me? (Are you ever gonna save me?)
Or will you put me in my place?
Will you put me in my place?