"Medicine" lyrics

I used to want to die
But now I want to live forever
I've got friends online
And they know me better than I know myself
And I don't cry
Because my medication confiscates emotions, now I can't play with my feelings
So I go outside
And I talk about the weather

Well the sky is blue, and the leaves are green
I'm an atheist, so I don't believe, but

Thank God for my medicine
I feel so apathetic when
I take my medicine
And it's in my head again
Thank God for my medicine
I feel so much better, and
If it wasn't for my medicine
I'd wanna be dead again

I could never stay awake
But now I'm staring at the ceiling
Oh, you think I've lost weight?
Gee thanks, I didn't even have to try, I just forgot I hadn't eaten
And my heart can't break
Because my medication confiscated sex, now I don't fancy anybody
And my life is great, because it is devoid of meaning

But I'm happy I was born and I don't care why
And I never used to pray but I may as well try

Thank God for my medicine
I feel so apathetic when
I take my medicine
And it's in my head again
Thank God for my medicine
I feel so much better, and
If it wasn't for my medicine
I'd wanna be dead again

Oh my God, I love my medicine
Oh my God, there's nothing better than medicine
If it wasn't for my medicine (oh my God)
I'd wanna be dead again
(I don't feel sad, I just feel numb)
Oh my God, I love my medicine
Oh my God, there's nothing better than medicine
If it wasn't for my medicine (oh my God)
I'd wanna be dead again
(I don't feel sad, I just feel numb)

Thank God for my medicine
I feel so apathetic when
I take my medicine
And it's in my head again
Thank God for my medicine
I feel so much better, and
If it wasn't for my medicine
I'd wanna be dead again