"what if i" lyrics

I'm fadin' into the wall
It's safer here in the silence
I'm headin' straight to my downfall
And passin' it off as tryin'
I act like I know it all
Secret's out that I'm lyin'
Thrown around like a rag doll
It's what I deserve for hidin'

And fightin' the truth
I'm denyin', it's fatal
When the highs and the lows come and go
Lay my cards on the table
(I'll admit I'm unstable)

What if I could be sane for a day?
Let the fear float away, watch me fly
What if I could escape from the scene
Of my past misery? Say goodbye
What if I?

I'm ripped right out of my dream
Was I hallucinatin'?
If nothing's quite what it seems
Then what is the point I'm chasin'?
Reality's startin' to bleed
Pullin' me into a spiral
I'm beggin' to find a reprieve
From havin' to fake a smile

Now I'm fightin' the truth
I'm denyin', it's fatal, fatal
When the highs and the lows come and go
Lay my cards on the table
(I'll admit I'm unstable)

What if I could be sane for a day?
Let the fear float away, watch me fly
What if I could escape from the scene
Of my past misery? Say goodbye
What if I?

What if I could be sane for a day?
Let the fear float away, watch me fly
What if I could escape from the scene
Of my past misery? Say goodbye
What if I? (Hidin' and fightin' the truth I'm denyin', it's fatal)
What if I? (When the highs and the lows come and go)
(Lay my cards on the table)
What if I?