"Last To Know" lyrics

Guess I'm late, please do forgive
Everybody's asking "where you been"?
I could never keep up with these kids
And how they make me feel like I'm the last to know
Of what you did
Everybody knew so much of it
And how he just showed up on your trip
Yeah that's something you forgot to mention

I was always too quick to forgive
Deep inside my heart I felt like I deserved all this
I don't know how anyone could have some love to give
I stay in the dark so I cannot discover it

I'll always be the last to know
I'll always be the last to show
Any sign of passion, oh
My fears, they keep me rational

While you drown in Aperol, I'm erased
You want to keep me as your secret
Oh it's a shame and it's pitiful
I'll always be the last to know
I'll be your little afterthought, your escape
You want to keep me for your selfish cause
But I can't keep up anymore
I don't need to be disposed

I could die from the embarrassment
I'll live in the dark and never see the light again
Just like you wanted

I'll always be the last to know
I'll always be the last to show
Any sign of passion, oh
My fears, they keep me rational

I admire your lack of regret
I will never be somebody you can just forget
When it keeps you up at night, when you lay down in bed
I will not feel sorry for you, this is what you get

My shoulder is colder these days
And I'm a little older, I smolder in shame