"IF I DON'T COUNT TO SIX I'LL DIE" lyrics

I never told anyone, and I'm terrified
That if I don't count to six right now, I might die
I don't know what's wrong with me, but it wants to ruin my life
Ruin my life
Ruin my life

I just spend my days thinking, ruminating
I know that this can't be healthy but it's my safety
Hide my face and hide away
I don't want you to see reality

I don't believe in God and I don't believe in anything
But my brain keeps telling me that everything means everything
Nothing's fucking real, but I keep doing it anyway
Because I might die if I don't shut my lights off correctly

I don't wanna die
I don't wanna die
I don't wanna die
I don't wanna die
I don't wanna die
I don't wanna die
I don't wanna die
I don't wanna die
I don't wanna die
I don't wanna die
I don't wanna die