"Scream" lyrics

I feel conflicted, but it's excitement
Maybe I'm nervous, mostly I like it
It's like the house light I keep unlit
Last box in the basement, I've got a secret

I've got a secret under the carpet
I can't remember in which compartment
The mind holds memories of days we've missed
I miss being certain, certainly I miss

Fallin' for the afterthought
Of feelin' what I want
I want to feel everything
But when I do it makes me question if I'm falling wrong
Don't wanna break something
And people say it can belong
As long as it's unseen

I feel uneasy, internal conflict
My head and my heart try to rephrase the argument
As "You didn't feel that," now I feel gaslit
Torch my emotions
Please change the subject

Fallin' for the afterthought
Of feelin' what I want, I want to feel everything
But when I do it makes me question if I'm falling wrong
Don't wanna break something, and people say it can belong
As long as it's unseen

I feel confused by what I'm ashamed for
I feel ashamed by my human nature
Choose to adapt new outward behavior
To feel accepted
People are built for

Actin' like there's nothing wrong
So they can just move on
Sometimes I just wanna
But if I did it'd make you question if I'm worthy of
Feeling love, it's funny how we get along
Just as long as I'm quiet