"born to lose" lyrics

I would never shower if it wasn't for my roommates
Haven't left the house in so long
Pretty sure it's Tuesday
It could be Wednesday
But never Sunday
It doesn't matter, no one's calling me

Every time I open up my phone, I am reminded
Seeing all the fun I used to have that's now behind me
There'a no denying, we're only dying
And I got more than one foot in the grave

Ooh
I could do my makeup like I used to do
Looking like someone who wasn't born to lose
Ooh, ooh, to lose
Ooh, ooh, to lose
I picked so many battles that I broke in two
Now I'm just the half who knows she's born to lose
Ooh, ooh, to lose
Ooh, ooh, to lose

Maybe it's better that I've accepted it
Even though I'm depressed and irrelevant
God, I miss being a teenager
More than I care to admit

Ooh
I could do my makeup like I used to do
Looking like someone who wasn't born to lose
Ooh, ooh, to lose
Ooh, ooh, to lose
I picked so many battles that I broke in two
Now I'm just the half who knows she's born to lose
Ooh, ooh, to lose
Ooh, ooh, to lose

How can I be hopeful when it's getting so dystopian?
And nothing's ever gonna feel the way it always felt back then
I'm Mr. Peaked in High School but I never even went

Ooh
I could do my makeup like I used to do
Looking like someone who wasn't born to lose
Ooh, ooh, to lose
Ooh, ooh, to lose

I picked so many battles that I broke in two
Now I'm just the half who knows she's born to lose
Ooh, ooh, to lose
Ooh, lose