"Sorry Mama" lyrics

(Say Bizzie)
Mm, mm, this a letter to the lady who had me, you know what I'm sayin'
Who gave birth to me in the hospital, but she ain't really my mama though, you know what I'm sayin'
Turn it up in the earphones, yeah, uh, uh
I'ma apologize to you since I feel like I got in your way
I don't know
Ayy, look

I don't know too much, I know you left me when I was just a lil' baby
Sometimes I think about that shit, I be like, "Damn, that shit crazy"
How you raise them other kids and you ain't check on your baby?
I know you had some other kids, but how you ain't check on your latest?
People ask me how I feel about it when we converse
I use to tell 'em I ain't care 'cause you had left me at birth
But when my daddy seen my eyes, that nigga knew it was worse
I used to asked if you was alive, I pictured you in a herse
I pictured you at your worst, now picture you in this verse
Now picture me as a lil' kid tryna figure out what I'm worth
Now picture me as a lil' kid tryna figure out if I'm cursed
Now picture me as a lil' kid tryna figure out if I'm hurt

I'm sorry, mama
I just wanna apologize to you, you know what I'm sayin' (I never meant to hurt you)
I hate I even went through this shit (I never meant to make you leave me)
I hate I even had to do a song like this (I'm cleanin' out my closet)
One more time, ayy (I'm sorry, mama)
How you leave your motherfuckin' baby? (I never meant to hurt you)
Just by hisself like that (I never meant to make you leave me)
Thought I'm supposed to be all you had (I'm cleanin' out my closet)
Ayy, ayy

You know I started to run soon as I found out how to walk
You know I started with guns soon as I found out how to pout
You know I started the fun soon as I found out 'bout the law
You know my son? Your quote unquote grandson? He finally can talk
You know he autistic, he got a slight delay in his speech
I think it's God punishin' me for how I play in these streets
You know I do my thing, I get them bricks of yay for the cheap
You know I changed the game, I take my life and say it on beats
You know my daddy said that he was gon' be there, but he wasn't
He dropped me off in Adamsville, man, I was raised by my cousin
You know Pam and Sally took me in, treated me as they own
Gave me a bed with Barney sheets, I had a room in they home
I met your mama one time, she said, "You a bundle of mine"
And I guess she my grandma but I ain't feel like she mine
And she told me you wasn't shit and, I ain't feel like she lying
And she told me she be cryin' but I ain't feel like she cryin'

I'm sorry, mama
Ayy, I wanna apologize for like (I never meant to hurt you)
Gettin' in your motherfuckin' way, you know what I'm sayin' (I never meant to make you leave me)
Now everybody I fuck with, I feel like I'm in they way, you know what I'm sayin' (I'm cleanin' out my closet)
Shit fucked a nigga over
One more time (Ayy, I'm sorry, mama)
How the fuck you just leave a nigga? (I never meant to hurt you)
How the fuck you just leave a nigga out like that, you know what I'm sayin' (I never meant to make you leave me)
I know you feel bad (I'm cleanin' out my closet)
I'm cleanin' this shit out, man

I ain't tryna be disrespectful, but it's like it's just how I feel, you know what I'm sayin'
I don't really got no relationship with you, so I don't really give a fuck
But it is what it is
You know as my lil' boy got older
The more I took care of him, the more I was there for him
The more madder I got at you because you couldn't do that for me
I never meant to hurt you
I don't care 'bout that
I'm cleanin' out my closet