"disgusting" lyrics

Everyday I wake up
I just gun it
I feel like a monster
I'm disgusting
She dripping in makeup
Telling me she love me
I'm so sick of fake love
Got me feeling nothing
Yah yah

I been off a subtance
Yah yah
I just fill my cup up
I be turning to the drugs for all my problems
Kinda funny cause that shit ain't ever even solve them
No way
I think that I'm dying
I'm drowning like everyday
Losing to my demons
I think I'm going insane
Catch me in the city
Just smoking my woes away

I just need a reason
Like why am I still alive
Sometimes I be tweakin
My life feels like it's a lie
I been feeling so fucked up
But it's still not enough

Everyday I wake up
I just gun it
I feel like a monster
I'm disgusting
She drippin in makeup
Telling me she love me
I'm so sick of fake love
Got me feeling nothing
Yah yah