"Who I Am Ain't Who I've Been" lyrics

And I walked along and I hum a song
With my barrel down in the early dawn
And I flushed a hare and my primer flared
And it got away and I shed a tear
Cause you left the same and I'm to blame
And we may never love again

And I'm cleaning up that busted truck
I'd keep it but I need a buck
And I reach beneath the driver seat
And I found the card you made for me
And I never knew how pure and cruel pain could feel 'til I lost you

And I've dug some graves
And I've laid with shame
And I've cringed when folks have called my name
And who I am ain't who I been
I ran away when I could stand
And I'm never fine
And hope is blind
And you're still keeping me alive