"The Long Way" lyrics

It's a quiet night in Pasadena
Past the hipsters and the healers
Silence only makes it clearer
I miss her all the time
And I know the odds are getting steeper
If I ever get the chance to see her
I'd hook her to my carabiner
I couldn't lose her twice

I had you once
I didn't know how to keep you
I blacked out for ten months
Tryna find something deeper
But I knew I was
Gonna end up here always
Running right back to your place
I guess I just took the long way

And the part of me that hangs on hoping
Hates the part that knows we're broken
In denial and in devotion
It's hard to pick a side
And I saw it crashing in slow motion
I broke the door tryna to keep it open
Flew across the whole across the whole damn ocean
Just to say goodbye

I had you once
I didn't know how to keep you
I blacked out for ten months
Tryna find something deeper
But I knew I was
Gonna end up here always
Running right back to your place
I guess I just took the long way

And I feel everything
But I just feel it slowly
I didn't know how much I missed you til it broke me
And all you ever wanted was to hold me
It's criminal I hold my heart so closely
She's dancing like a ballerina
If only she saw how I see her
Man I swear this time I'm holding tight

I had you once
I didn't know how to keep you
I blacked out for ten months
Tryna find something deeper
But I knew I was
Gonna end up here always
Running right back to your place
I guess I just took the long way