"Impossible Happiness" lyrics

From Michigan (What, what's the company?)
(The Lunch Crew Company, I'm part of that)
(I'm so proud of you, Caasi)

Can't keep my mind off these drugs
Popping pills, tryna find me a buzz
I lash out, now they calling me thug
Really I'm looking for love
Slash my wrist, now I'm drowning in blood
Shit, I can't even ask my mom for a hug

These days, I'm just a check for niggas
They just send Cash App requests and a message with it
Don't even ask if I'm okay and is my kids straight?
They just think my pockets full, want me to bless them with it
God know I'm not perfect, I got the devil praying for me
Big Glock with a thirty just in case if a nigga try to ho me, then he gon' die today
Everybody wanna be famous, but this shit ain't what it seems (Yeah)
Ketamine, purple lean help create a nigga dreams (Dreams)
Opportunists, fake friends, gold diggers, lawyer fees
Really can't trust my own family, don't know who really fuck with me

My feelings hurt, don't even bother with it (Don't even bother with it)
I'm tired of talking to the devil, always gotta listen (Devil, always gotta listen)
I love my kids with all my heart, I'm not a father figure (I'm not a father figure)
I just want my soul unleashed 'cause I'm tired of living ('Cause I'm tired of living)

Can't keep my mind off these drugs
Popping pills, tryna find me a buzz
I lash out, now they calling me thug
Really I'm looking for love
Slash my wrist, now I'm drowning in blood
Shit, I can't even ask my mom for a hug
Can't keep my mind off these drugs
Popping pills, tryna find me a buzz
I lash out, now they calling me thug
Really I'm looking for love
Slash my wrist, now I'm drowning in blood
Shit, I can't even ask my mom for a hug

At night, I feel lonely
Glock under my pillow 'cause the demons, they want me
Won't go down without a fight 'cause my soul, man, they want it
Can't call on my homies, they won't answer, they owe me
They think I want that tab, but it don't matter, if they need me, then I'm comin' fast
I wish niggas gave me a handout, I had to bust my ass
Mama said I need to get baptized, it'll suppress my past
I use Dial soap to get the blood off, rather take a bath
I'm out of options now, but on my kids, I'ma make a way
Can't even trust my bitch, since I got rich, my love ain't been the same
Do you know how I feel when something hurt, but can't explain the pain?

My feelings hurt, don't even bother with it (Even bother with it)
I'm tired of talking to the devil, always gotta listen (Always gotta listen)
I love my kids with all my heart, I'm not a father figure (I'm not a father figure)
I just want my soul unleashed 'cause I'm tired of living ('Cause I'm tired of living)

Can't keep my mind off these drugs
Popping pills, tryna find me a buzz
I lash out, now they calling me thug
Really I'm looking for love
Slash my wrist, now I'm drowning in blood
Shit, I can't even ask my mom for a hug

So, that, that, uh, like, you don't you crazy, though?
Um, I mean, not like on some shit, like, oh, bitch need pills, I might think, like
You don't think you need pills?
No, I just think my emotions— when I'm comfortable with certain people, I let, I let certain emotions fly (But your)
But like for the most part, I know how to control them, I know right from wrong, like
I don't think, like, I'm just like
Off the rails, like I'm crazy as fuck
I just think it's just like a lot of things have happened to me and I—