"Torches" lyrics

I ain't got no faith in myself
And I can't see what I could love in you
From what I know, I even doubt what I cherish
And I hate the vague words
But I don't wanna be lost
I don't wanna see all I have when I stare at the mirror
Do we only exist to survive?
Do I only exist to survive?
For all the mess I leave
There is a price to pay
And no one to blame but me
I tend to care about nothing
But the bottles I've thrown to the sea
I'm falling apart
And carrying my faded torches
From time to time I tend to believe
Not only fists have been kissing my cheeks
Cause I understand you only wear the fucked faces of my failures

A thorn in the belly
And no hands to hold
The blood is pouring
And my body's cold

I've been writing poems to my stomach
Some words to make him feel alright
But I ain't got no pleasure in lying to this old friend of mine
And maybe he'll understand what I called "the sun"
Is just easy mornings seeing all doubts gone
And the faith in all that lays in my head

Well, the sun is still hiding from me
I guess it's all a business between my guts and I
Some kind of personal war
Some lights are meant to shine
Some suns are meant to hide
Just never forget who you are
A son, a friend. A heart, and a brain