"Big Smoke" lyrics

I could tell you tales of misery
That would tear you all apart
Cold shoulder left without a home
And the will to give up

I am nothing but reliable
So why do you let me down?
Shown you nothing but loyalty
Even when you weren't around

Your eyes tell me things your heart never could
At least I felt something
Something you never would
Filled my lungs with the big smoke
But it
Was just not to be
I could never learn
To look after me

I had to leave, when I knew this was becoming a strain
Do you know what it feels like

I've been looking for someone to save me from this hell
Nothing could be further from the truth
Still no sign of changing pace how long can this take?
These recurring dreams still keeping me awake

Do you know what this has done to me?
Irregular and far apart
The sense of knowing my state of heart
Without you, I'm half the man I used to be
I know, we're searching, still finding, ourselves

I had to leave, when I knew this was becoming a strain
Do you know what it feels like

I've been looking for someone to save me from this hell
Nothing could be further from the truth
Still no sign of changing pace how long can this take?
These recurring dreams still keeping me awake

Can you warn me, next time you're fading out
I can't stand to see us breaking down

Can you warn me, next time you're fading out
I can't stand to see us breaking down

Hell is just a word
Reality is...
Is so much worse