"New Self" lyrics

I was hanging at a party in the desert one night
When I looked across the room, I saw Shaun White
I'm like "Oh my God, he is hot as fuck"
And he just won the gold, baby, what is my luck?
This was way back when I was losing my shit
But our stars were aligned, playing mystery tricks
I keep thinking 'bout you, it's making me sick
And that night in your car when we played just the tip

I'm older now, I've gotten help
I wish you could meet my new self
I'm older now, I've gotten help
I wish you could meet my new self
My new self

He asked where I lived and I said "I don't know"
I had already lost my mind, wallet and my phone
And the last time we spoke, you asked how I was
I said I was at a show for Courtney Love
And that I'd been thinking 'bout killing myself
Then deleted your number, embarrassed I felt
I'm sorry for that maybe, I was possessed
By Jim Morrison, Kurt Cobain and the rest

I'm older now, I've gotten help
I wish you could meet my new self
I'm older now, I've gotten help
I wish you could meet my new self
My new self
My new self

You had the biggest energy that I have ever ever seen
Nothing compares to when our stars aligned and I was in your beam
Of light for that one night, our bodies started taken flight
In a galaxy far away, today I'd be misses white

I'm older now, I've gotten help
I wish you could meet my new self
I'm older now, I've gotten help
I wish you could meet my new self
My new self
My new self