"this is my cocktail" lyrics

This is my cocktail
And I drink it cause
I love it
This is how I don't feel
And make friend of trouble

I fear two things:
Losing my mind
Losing my body

When you find your skin
Has been broke in
By thousand worms who
Cannot wait for you to be gone
Then you count to ten
And she looks upon your skin
And so begin to compose a vow:

Never hold a gun, nor a sign
It isn't fun, and fun is how you should define
One's way to be
Bedding down with twins
And hoping God will walk right in
And take a picture of
This holy group of three

It is enough to cry
It pays for all before you die
And kills the yearn to justify

I need two things:
Keeping my mind
Keeping my body