"Pain" lyrics

I finally moved out my momma house
Got a happy home
Only thing fucked up, Daddy gone (Gone forever man)
Listen up this is real shit (Real shit)
It's fucked up when you got nobody to share it with (Fucked up)
Give my last so my grandma can see me now (See me now)
Smilin tellin everybody 'bout her grand baby (her grand baby)
T-Lady hold on all I got is you (Mama)
It's fucked up what I done put me and my mama through
What's happenin Ivory I know you lookin down watchin me
Every day I got yo kids fresh from head to feet (All of 'em)
Wish I can put you in the Bentley with the brown rug
I wish we never would've went out to that club
On the road to riches mane lost a flock of niggas
[?] DeKKe Boy a whole block of niggas
Niggas bite the hand that feed 'em I done seen it all
Just got a call... Slo dead... Not my fuckin dawg

I never thought this pain last this many years
I... I never thought this pain last this many years
Still in tears
I... I never thought this pain last this many years

I lost my daddy in a heartbeat
Real talk eyes turnin right in front me
Ever since I saw that shit... it hunt me
Pray for me 'cause I shake in my fuckin sleep
Wish I could gamble Dekke Boy shoot the 50 nigga
I shoulda put him under my wing and I miss him nigga
I told Titus way back stop ridin with ya pack
He ain't listen
And now my nigga right back in penitentiary he don't listen
I lost Ivy and it fucked me up
My whole life changed
Nigga put me up in beast mode
My heart cold
And as the years role
I wish that he could have everything I got
And a little more
Yo kids love me nigga
My kids and yo kids call each other sister and brothers
You forever my little hustler
Just saw yo gangster at the car lot nigga and a tear dropped nigga

I never thought this pain last this many years
I... I never thought this pain last this many years
Still in tears
I... I never thought this pain last this many years

Seem like it was yesterday
The mo money I get this shit hurt
I thought that would take the stress away
To see you smilin with yo chain countin money nigga
When Trina pulled you on stage you was stuntin nigga
But through it all mane you know how we rock nigga
From the yo to the block to the hospital
Never again would I have another big dawg
But ya mama and kids I got 'em all but I

I never thought this pain last this many years
I... I never thought this pain last this many years
Still in tears
I... I never thought this pain last this many years