"Disappearer" lyrics

There are times when I can't erase the rookie mistakes of my past life
In my brothers eyes I see my hopeful lies
I tried, but sometimes it's too late the magic evaporates
I lie and sometimes I wish I could make myself disappear

I'll clean up my face
But I can't be the one who's pulling the weight
When I get home I get heavy and fall in I'm all in
And you have nothing to say to save me

There are lines that I've walked alone that I've drawn and crossed in the sand
In my hands, lie in delicate rows the vessels pumping through my veins
Cause we're the same
Someone throws us the ball and we jump into the game but I must say
The only difference between us is that I know how to play

So clean up your face
Cause I can't be the one who's pulling the weight
When I get home I get heavy and fall in I'm all in
And you have nothing to say to save me

Falling, I'm all in now

I wanted to say
You're breaking waves over me every holiday
Fees like nothing has changed
You don't know me so well
So I stay away and fall from disgrace

I don't want to be you I just want to be with you
I don't want to be you I just want to be with
Don't want to be you I just wanna be you
I don't want to be you I just wanna

Clean up my face
Cause I can't be the one who's pulling the weight
When I get home I get heavy and fall in, I'm all in
And you have nothing to say, yeah