"Blame's Burden" lyrics

I can hardly breathe
My blood can't hold its heat
I'm right where I'm supposed to be
But I'm still not happy
Life was so simple when I was miserable
The unspoken struggle of moving on

You lose all concept of life
When you live one day at a time
I'm not prepared for this
Not ready for all the years I never thought I'd see
Not ready to let down all the people that care about me

Chipping away at the edges
Joy tends to vanish once it's noticed

I'm better than I've ever been
And I won't pretend I'm not
When I've come so close to giving up
After all the years I spent wanting to self destruct

Hold my hand
Wish away the red stains (I can hardly breathe)
I lack direction to run straight away
So hold my hand

I can hardly breathe
My blood can't hold its heat
I'm right where I'm supposed to be
But I'm still not happy
Life was so simple when I was miserable
The unspoken struggle of moving on

I wish that I could disappear
That I could fade into the grey

Without the burden of anyone missing me
Without the burden of the blame