"Pain Medicine" lyrics

A hot knife to my skin
Anything just to feel

Just to prove that I'm still here
Anything to register
Pain
Pain as a medicine
Addicted to my own self destruction
Heaven's uninvited

Creator and destroyer
The arbiter of all composition
Albatross
Giver and taker of my existence

Pain
My only motivation
I'm working towards nothing
I feel like I'm fucking dying
No one knows that I'm here
And no one will know when I'm gone

A match lit in a canyon, burning alive in silence
A victim of my inaction, we always knew this would happen
I'll take this to my grave

Don't stop 'till it hurts
I need this more than you could ever know
Let this end with me
I'll never be normal

Pain
The only thing that I'll ever need

Pain
The only thing that will never leave

Because when you've been cut, and there is no longer a chance for wholeness
Only the feeling of how hopeless you become
To ever be the person that you thought you would

Lost solace
Absence of purpose
Your growth, stunted