"Apex" lyrics

Yep ok I was a little bit fired up
Is loosing heart just part of the game
It's something I'd been thinking bout right
I'm at opposite end
Just an amateur diver
Was in over my head this time
But I'm stripping it down to size

It was a reckoning I found
It wasn't up to me
And in the chaos I got crowned
As some bizarre believer

I know that nothing can take this away from me
But it's such a long way, I'm covered in scars, I guess I got tired
Somewhere out on the way

I'm at the apex I'm in the strangest love of my life
I'm at the apex or at least some version of my own insight
I lay down my hand, I'm a soldier now, it's not all that bad
How could you understand

And you always said that's life
To want such favouring
But then you never had felt that way

And though theres nothing that takes this away from me
It's such a long time, I'm covered in scars, I guess I got tired
Somewhere out on the way

I'm at the apex I'm in the strangest love of my life
I'm at the apex or at least some version of my own insight
I lay down my hand, I'm a soldier now, it's not all that bad
How could you understand

How could you understand
How could you understand

I know that nothing can take this away from me

I know that nothing can take this away from me
But it's such a long way, I'm covered in scars...