"ASHED US OUT" lyrics

I hate myself for what we had
Typical of me to turn my back
Looking at the two years past
Feelings move slow and time moves fast
Love drunk darkness, baby, we knew just how to turn up
Shouting "haven't you people ever heard of"
And I closed the goddamn door on us

With you by my side, I had what I wanted
The look in your eyes just made me feel like I was finally okay

Ashed us out like the darts we smoked
Fourth quarter shot, I choked, and now
You're off with him and I'm all alone
Oh no
I sleep bad in the bed I made
Quit smoking, kept these chains, and now
My feet hurt from walking this path I paved

Trusting was the piece I missed
Feeling my shame, watching you stay so loyal to the guy you're with
I'm so afraid of feeling this way forever, and

I said goodbye
You asked me, "Why?"
Do you still think about it?
Do you still think about me?

Ashed us out like the darts we smoked
Fourth quarter shot, I choked, and now
You're off with him and I'm all alone
Oh no
I sleep bad in the bed I made
Quit smoking, kept these chains, and now
My feet hurt from walking this path I paved

I keep you on the bar cart's highest shelf
It's hard because I wish you well, and
I feel you in the heartburn as I melt
Trying to reach what we felt
Nothing but the pictures numb the pain
Dumb to cover up his face
I feel you in my heartbeat's rising pace
When someone here says your name

'Cause I ashed us out like the darts we smoked
Fourth quarter shot, I choked, and now
You're off with him and I'm all alone
Oh no
I sleep bad in the bed I made
Quit smoking, kept these chains, and now
My feet hurt from walking this path I paved