"Numb" lyrics

I think I've officially become numb
I've built the numbs around my heart so high it's dumb
'Cause I'm not willing to take a risk
If no one's allowed inside then we can coexist

But I won't exist when you're in me
I won't be missed unless my head would let my heart finally bleed
I just wish my head would let my heart finally bleed

I'm afraid of letting myself feel
So I've locked the door and swallowed the key to anything real
Seems easier to be lukewarm then to be exhausted by unrealistic expectations to conform

But I'll never conform to what they need
I'll always feel torn about my head letting my heart finally bleed
I just wish my head would let my heart finally bleed
I just wish my head would let my heart finally bleed

I'm sorry I've let myself become numb
I thought if I acted strong then I never would succumb
To the gripping fear of being alone
Always told myself I don't need another to feel whole

But I'll never feel whole
And I'm in need of letting go of control so my head can let my heart finally bleed
And I'm in need of letting go of control so my head can let my heart finally bleed
I just wish my head would let my heart finally bleed
So let me be