"clawmarks" lyrics

My feet are always heavy
They never want to let me leave
So the way out just gets further away from me
My heart is a hoarder
Collecting pain she shouldn't keep
And I try to clean her house
But she cries and shoos me out

So I can't give you half, I'm all in
I don't release, I resist
My hands are bleeding raw and
I can't loosen up my grip
But it's not hard holding on when
I never learned how to quit
So all that I've loved and lost has
Claw marks running deep through it

Now I'm sick in the head
Wrapping my ribs in the clothes that you left
One could call that hanging on by a thread
Water a rose when it's already dead
Begging it to bloom again
I can't, I can't, I can't
Just give you up like that
It's out of my control
Once I let you in
I cannot let you go

So I can't give you half, I'm all in
I don't release, I resist
My hands are bleeding raw and
I can't loosen up my grip
But it's not hard holding on when
I never learned how to quit
So all that I've loved and lost has
Claw marks running deep through it

Cursed to keep on holding
Even with my knuckles broken
I cannot let you go
I cannot let you go

Cursed to keep on holding
Even with my knuckles broken
I cannot let you go
I cannot let you go
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