"Personal" lyrics

Here's a little something about a seeker like me

I'm trying not to take it personal
But I'm a person though
If I'm blessed to see heaven
I'll be perfect yo
But at this minute
I'm spinning on the earth below
Yeah I already know
I'm trying not to take it personal
But I'm a person though
I don't want to be the clown
Up in the circus show
If I change you'll be the first to know

I love the prophet Muhammad
Peace be upon him
But if I'm being honest
I'm so far from him
These people hear me talking
And say ah that's nice
But I don't criticize my children
In my podcast voice
That ain't right
I got a platinum soul
A solid gold heart
A steel trap mind
And that's a damn good start
But yo this ego of mine
It's like a festival urinal
All day always tryna ruin it all
And so I wash and I pray
I sit and I breathe
I do the mantras all day
And I click on the beads
I tell the therapist the narrative
That's living in me
And walk around acting like
What I wish I could be
It isn't hypocrisy
That's a target I'm aiming at
Doesn't mean I'm claiming it
By naming it
But I know the closer I get
And the more that they watch
It hurts them more when I slip
They get hit by stray shots
My god

I'm trying not to take it personal
But I'm a person though
If I'm blessed to see heaven
I'll be perfect yo
But at this minute
I'm spinning on the earth below
I already know
I'm trying not to take it personal
But I'm a person though
I don't want to be the clown
Up in the circus show
If I change you'll be the first to know