"Letter To Blueberry" lyrics

Awkward
This is awkward
I don't what to say
I haven't written a letter
In about a year I think on the day
Your box is in my attic
With the journal I wrote when we'd date
It's weird now
Years later with my pen on a page

And though I know
We don't talk much
I've worked though all the trauma
And I really hope you're okay
And want to reconnect someday
It's obvious I've hurt your feelings
There's no excuse I was unappealing
And you have every reason to be mad at me

I get that I've created some scars
With the words I spoke and with my guitar
But I miss when we'd lay under the stars
You really were so lovely

I don't fully know why we fell out
But I think it had to do with my mouth
I couldn't keep it shut and shut down
You had every right leave me

I'm tired really tired
Still not sure what to say
I don't think you really knew me
Think you fell for the me in your brain

And that's not fair for either
Of us, we deserve better
And I really hope that you're okay
I want to reconnect someday

I get that I've created some scars
With the words I spoke and with my guitar
But I miss when we'd lay under the stars
You really were so lovely

I don't fully know why we fell out
But I think it had to do with my mouth
I couldn't keep it shut and shut down
You had every right leave me

I don't know why I'm writing this letter
It's been two years I should know better
You needed some space and I get that
But all I want is my best friend back
I try to move on but with no luck cause every time
I pass you, I get restuck
And you probably hate me anyway
But I really just needed to say

I hope I gave you space to move on
Please say sorry for me to your mom
And even though we didn't date long
You meant so much to me
I hope this song can bring you some peace
Cause my other ones were not quite so sweet
We both deserve much better things
Thank you for being my first everything