"If I Hang, Let Me Swing" lyrics

I try to find my purpose in this suffering
While the void whispers my name
Sweet relief, eternal sleep is just one step away
If I hang, let me swing

Emotionless as I am moving through motions
I'm paralysed behind my disguise
If all is really well then why does this feel like hell?
Is all there really is this rotting shell?

I feel the mortal coil weighing me down
As I endlessly toil, my blood it boils
I will reap what I have sown
The end is coming soon, I feel it in my bones

Will there ever be solace for a wretch like me?
Or will I suffer on for eternity?

I try to find my purpose in this suffering
While the void whispers my name
Sweet relief, eternal sleep is just one step away
If I hang, let me swing
Do not resuscitate
Cause it's far too late, I've sealed my faith
I have made my choice, it can't be changed
Oh death, hear my voice

My calloused heart holds nothing but disdain
For everyone and everything
How do I carry on, what do I have to give?
When all I feel is this nothingness

Invisible agony cuts so deep
That no eyes can see what it has done to me
Existence is suffering
Existence is suffering
An inevitable end is all it brings
Existence is suffering
An inevitable end is all it brings

I try to find my purpose in this suffering
While the void whispers my name
Sweet relief, eternal sleep is just one step away
If I hang, let me swing
Do not resuscitate
Cause it's far too late, I've sealed my faith
I have made my choice, it can't be changed
Oh death, hear my voice