"Stuck" lyrics

I feel so far away from everyone else
So damn disconnected, not even close to myself
Try to connect, but I still reject
Thoughts of better days, a miserable wretch
And don't think I don't see the irony
A self loathing lyricist as pretentious as can be
Spending my days writing 'bout the end
And yet I wonder why still I'm stuck in this mess

Give me a break
I don't know how much I can take
Give me a break
Before I break

I swear I'll change, but my convictions always fail
I swear I'll change, but every step feels like a mistake
I swear I'll change, but I'm still digging my own grave
I swear I'll change, but the dirt still fresh beneath my nails

How I long to be comfortably numb
While every day is a search for a reason to go on
But I always succumb, to every single demon
They claw and they pull at my soul till I come undone

Is this all there is?
Sleepless nights and emptiness

Is this all there is?
Sleepless nights and emptiness
Is this all there is?
Fully engulfed by nothingness

I swear I'll change, but my convictions always fail
I swear I'll change, but every step feels like a mistake
I swear I'll change, but I'm still digging my own grave
I swear I'll change, but the dirt still fresh beneath my nails

I swear I'll change but every day's the same
Face down, blackout, trying to escape

I'm stuck in a place that I can't escape
Spending my days digging my own grave
I swear I try my best to put these thoughts to rest
But it's so damn hard, every day's the same mess

I'm stuck in a place that I can't escape
Spending my days digging my own grave
I swear I try my best to put these thoughts to rest
But it's so damn hard, every day's the same mess

All I want is a god damn break
Somewhere safe, a respite or escape
I just want to remove these chains
But I can't help but seal my own fate