"Vanta Black" lyrics

Injected in my veins I see my world turn black
The perception that I've gained I can never take back
Logic, reason and eternal regret
That I will never forget, that I will never forget
Broken down and beaten by subconscious mind, that never ceases to betray me
I give up, I submit, I admit that I am worth nothing to anyone anymore

These thoughts I had so long ago overshadowed by the constant reminder that I'm irrelevant
Swallowed up by these overbearing waves of shame and guilt
I wish I had known these truths

I wish I knew what I was
I wish I knew what I'd become
Fucking irrelevant

I worship the pain and I worship the guilt
So I dream of ending it all now
To depart from a world of pathetic self indulgent, sycophantic cunts

Please spare me the pleasantries
You're not in this for me, you're in this for yourself
To try and prove to us that there is a God who truly loves us

But you're wrong
False idols and lies won't save your soul
Only the blackened embrace of the void will set us free

So pray to your God, he wants you all to suffer

"I have a deathwish and I will see it to the very end
I'll hang by my neck until I'm fucking dead
Let my ashes blow to the wind
So that my name may never be said again..."

Let me close my eyes to sleep
Eternally

I have a deathwish and I will see it to the very end
Let my ashes blow to the cold wind
So that my name may never be said again