"Vanta Black (Redux)" lyrics

(Be hopeless
Be nothing)

Injected in my veins, I see my world turn black
The perception that I've gained, I can never take back
Yeah, logic, reason, and eternal regret
That I will never forget, that I will never forget

Broken down and beaten by my subconscious mind
That never ceases to betray me
I give up, I submit, I admit
That I am worth nothing to anyone anymore

These thoughts I had so long ago
Overshadowed by the constant reminder
That I'm irrelevant

Swallowed up by these overbearing waves of shame and guilt
I wish I had known these truths

I wish I knew what I was
I wish I knew what I'd become
Fucking irrelevant
Fucking irrelevant

I worship the pain, and I worship the guilt
So, I dream of ending it all now
To depart from this world of pathetic
Self-indulgent, sycophantic cunts

Please spare me the pleasantries
You're not in this for me, you're in this for yourself
To try and prove to us that there is a God who truly loves us

But you're wrong
False idols and lies won't save your soul
Only the blackened embrace of the void
Will set us free

So, pray to your God
He wants you all to suffer

I have a death wish, and I will see it to the very end
I'll hang by my neck until I'm fucking dead
Let my ashes blow to the wind
So that my name may never be said again

Let me close my eyes to sleep
Eternally

I have a death wish, and I will see it to the very end
Let my ashes blow to the cold wind
So that my name may never be said again