"False Life Lived" lyrics

Last night I dreamed that I lost all of who I was
I was in some ancient village searching for the taste of blood
The roads were dry and dusty, there was terror all around
I was sure I'd left some money on the other side of town
So I walked on for hours, through the miserable market streets
Jonas cries, compounding chaos
There was flesh between my teeth

He said, "I am not your enemy, I hope you'll be okay
You are bound to the darkness in a million different ways"
I said I never looked back twice when I was in my prime
I played the ladies favorite enemy, stuck my spear in a sparrow's side
But when the birds flown to his nest when the ladies found their tower
Do you still brim with that vigor
As you stretch to fill the hour?

I apologize for everything, I'd like to take this off
I am still strangled by my voice
And all the things it cannot say

Took a bulletin from the rostrum
And he shoved it in my mouth
It was sickly sweet like honey
And I coughed and spat it out
He said, "I am not your enemy, I hope we can be friends
It's a tall, narrow gate we all pass through in the end"

And the saints who bled on mountains
Like the men who marched to war
As the world moves on without you
We will show up in their stories

But a hundred thousand hymns, they could not penetrate my heart
I am still frightened of the dark
In the dark I cannot see you