"memories i don't remember" lyrics

You ran your car into my bumper
I didn't care, I left it there
I drank myself to death that summer
You didn't care, you left me there

And here I thought I'd never leave
Drunk in your car hearing you scream
And I still ignored every red flag
Why did I do that?
Why did I do that?

I laid on your couch last December
I was fucking racing at your temper
I wanted to forget the way you screamed at me
When you had too much to drink
I guess forgetting made it better
I put away the years we spent together
I guess I'm not ready to surrender
To all the memories I don't remember

Stayed out until five in the morning
Said you worked late, common mistake
I know there's someone you were holding
When it got late it was just a mistake

And here I thought I'd never quit
I forced myself to forget it
And I still ignored every red flag
Why did I do that?
Why did I do that?

I laid on your couch last December
I was fucking racing at your temper
I wanted to forget the way you screamed at me
When you had too much to drink
I thought forgetting made it better
I put away the years we spent together
I'm still not ready to surrender
To all the memories I don't remember