"I Am Now" lyrics

I've been sitting in the stillness
Like I've never done before
Withered whips of wanting
I whittle on the floor
I'm carving out my life
Each stroke is calm and sure
I am now oh and how I'm opening the door

Maybe it's like a river how
It empties and it swells
Maybe it's like a season
On the other side it tells
But I won't leave until you start
Cause I'm a dog with a dog's heart
Oh I am now, oh and how
We never really part

Am I moving closer?
Sometimes I just can't tell
I still climb the tower at midnight
Just to ring your bell
And maybe it's like the moon
How she empties and she swells
Oh I am now oh and how
Time will only tell

There's an ember in my heart
That's never been blown
There's a river in the dark
That's never been shown
And if I close my eyes
Will I lift up and disappear
Oh I am now oh and how
I float away from fear

I'm making friends with emptiness
Past and future isn't real
Time it ain't no line
But it takes everything I feel
And though it seems a constant stream
I'm sure there is a shore
Oh I am now oh and how
I'm opening the door