"Remember The Days" lyrics

Suffer just to control you
I'll never even know you
Still, I wait at the window
Please come home soon
You try to push me away
And keep me away, but still I wait
I remember the days
When I thought everything was okay
When I didn't need someone to blame
When I didn't have to run from my name
Still, I'm lingering

I'm looking down, not ahead
Ashamed to say the words I meant
I need to get you off my chest
Then I'll deal with the rest
I'll face my own regrets
Until then, what's left

It takes hold of me
Like roots gripping the earth
I can't seem to shake your words
But they don't define my worth
Take some advice from the ones you hurt
Stop running from what you deserve
Maybe then we can make it work

Always wondering if you're suffering
What kind of pain will you bring
Still, I'm lingering
Face against the pane
And remembering the days
All this time, putting up a fight to make it out alive
I'll give it all my might
To change the paradigm
To shield the ones I love
From your parasite

I remember the days
When I thought everything was okay
When I didn't need someone to blame
When I didn't have to run from my name
Still, I'm lingering