"better" lyrics

I look so much better so I guess I'm alright
And I've got everything together and I'm glad I'm alive
But everything feels better on the edge of a knife
And I just really wish I didn't have to lie to you
Start crying in my room
I wanna be someone who
You feel better around but
I don't know if I can get better for you

Feels like I've turned my body inside out
My head is burning like a machine, tryna' cool it down
I've figured I'd have gotten used to this by now
I've gotten nearly everything I ever hoped I'd have
So why am I still sad?
I teared myself in half
Narcoleptic insomniac
I didn't think that it would ever get this bad