"On The Outside" lyrics

I've been trying to keep
My feet on the ground
I feel like I'm floating

Scared that I'll always be
Alone in a crowd
Where nobody knows me

Cause they all laugh
Behind my back
Like I don't know

That my whole life
Is the punchline
To a bad joke

I feel like I try
But it's the same every time
Do you know what it's like?
On the outside
Why am I so surprised?
When it's the same every time
Do you know what it's like?
On the outside

In a different life
I would go out at night
And make friends with strangers

I'd be someone they like
If I could just get it right
I wouldn't be such a failure

But they all laugh
Behind my back
Like I don't know

That my whole life
Is the punchline
To a bad joke

I feel like I try
But it's the same every time
Do you know what it's like?
On the outside
Why am I so surprised?
When it's the same every time
Do you know what it's like?
On the outside

I'm standing on my own
I'm out here in the cold
I just wanna come down
You can let me go
If I'm too much to hold
I'll get better somehow

I'm standing on my own
I'm out here in the cold
I just wanna come down
You can let me go
If I'm too much to hold
I'll get better somehow

I feel like I try
But it's the same every time
Do you know what it's like?
On the outside
Why am I so surprised?
When it's the same every time
Do you know what it's like?
On the outside