"Six Feet Under" lyrics

I can't help but think the worst of myself when
I go out of my way to ruin my peace of mind
I'm an optimist but the pessimist wins sometimes

And I'm fighting with the mirror when I thought that we were friends
I wanna disappear but then I'm going out again
Am I getting better or just better at pretending

Oh, some things never change
I'm still at war with my brain
I want so badly to feel good
I wonder
How much more can I take?
I'll just keep digging my grave
I won't be happy 'till I'm six feet under

Days turn into nights and every night feels the same
It's hard to get dressed cuz look at this mess I've made
I sit by myself, the stories I tell are fake

So I'm avoiding every mirror, I can't look at her again
I'd rather disappear than have to wait to see the end
Am I getting better, or just better at pretending

Oh some things never change
I'm still at war with my brain
I want so badly to feel good
I wonder
How much more can I take?
I'll just keep digging my grave
I won't be happy 'till I'm six feet under

(I won't be happy 'till I'm six feet under)
(I won't be happy 'till I'm six feet under)

I can't help but think the worst of myself when
I go out of my way to ruin my peace of mind
It's hard to keep breathing
Why do I even try?

Oh some things never change
I'm still at war with my brain
I want so badly to feel good
I wonder
How much more can I take?
I'll just keep digging my grave
I won't be happy 'till I'm six feet under

(I won't be happy 'till I'm six feet under)
(I won't be happy 'till I'm six feet under)