"afterlife" lyrics

Last night I lost a friend of a friend
With all this talk about the afterlife
Survivors guilt is setting in
Going on my third hour of lying in my bed
As I lay and watch the ceiling fan spin around again

Thinking about nothing
Mind weighed down by everything
Oh, and why am I the lucky one
What set my apart from all the hurt of humanity
All the pains of growing up

Went for a walk at three AM
I couldn't sleep
I had a dream that I was fallin'
From a lighthouse straight into the sea
The water's cold as ice
The wind bites with her teeth
Tearing down each happy memory
Piece by piece by piece by piece 'til I'm

Thinking about nothing
I swear my mind's weighed down by everything
Oh, and why am I the lucky one
What set my apart from all the hurt of humanity
All the pains of growing up

I can't explain it
So I'll just say it's fine
Going through each day
Without ever feeling alive
Wondering why I've been spared
While the whole world's falling to pieces
Holding on to every laugh and hoping
This time I'll find peace

Why am I the lucky one
What set my apart from all the hurt of humanity
All the pains of growing up