"31" lyrics

I'm not the one that you've been waitin' on
I'm not Janine
In a single way, I let you down
I'll miss you around
Got a wonderin' eye
And I don't trust myself

Go tellin' God that you've been prayin' on
Or to the friend who's listenin' in vain
This is just a phase
I'm just a phase
Memory one day
That'll leave you

Feel nothin' at all
Most of the time you ask me to see
But I don't wanna try

At 31, I still make the same mistakes
As when I was young
At 31, I still make the same mistakes
As when I was young

Maybe I've hurt you, maybe made you cry
Left you alone
Without explainin' my ways
How can I explain?
The ways in which I changed
I've been wounded and afraid
Before this

So please, don't say you understand me, now
It's just a lie
'Cause I don't understand
And all I know is true:
I used to be good
Now I'm just some fool
So [?]

My God, I'm a liar
Most of the time
You asked me to seek
But darlin', I'm too tired

At 31, I still make the same mistakes
As when I was young
At 31, I still make the same mistakes
As when I was young