"Illusion" lyrics

In an empty room
Inside a haunted house I waste, away
Nothing getting in
There's nothing coming out I fade to grey

All the memories I've been pushing out of my head
I need to face the pain, I never did
But if I open this door I won't really know what's ahead
I don't know how to feel, afraid to live

I wanna shut my eyes
I wanna live inside the dream, awake
But when I close my eyes
It's just a twisted mess I can't escape

All the memories I keep pushing out of my head
I want to face the pain, I never did
But if I open this door I won't really know what's ahead
I don't know how to feel, afraid to live

Running from the heartbreak of the night
It's an illusion of a life
I tremble with desire
Strangling the grief out of the light
It's an illusion of a life
I long to feel the fire

All the memories I keep pushing out of my head
I need to face the pain